The Secret

How is it that before I turned 40 it seemed as though I had my life together and now....not so much. Yes, prior to 40 there were some things that needed fine tuning, some things more than others, but for the most part I was doing fairly well. I had a good job, I was doing well in school, I still had the great pad with the coolest dog on the planet.
Now....I have my Master's degree but can't find a job in my field. My husband, who was supposed to be working in Nashville, is now going to be working in Ohio. It's a great job with amazing benefits, but out of town. Can someone explain to me how we go about getting pregnant while we live in 2 different states??????
Speaking of pregnancy...we're having trouble. The testing is really taking a toll on Jason and the thought of not having a baby is taking a toll on me. I've always been very open to adoption, but was also always very excited about being pregnant. Now, pregnancy may not be an option and Jason is not excited at the thought of adoption.....so that could mean no kids. Someone, anyone, please tell me how I reconcile that one.
Fortunately we're both healthy, and I've actually lost some weight....but I have been wayyyyyyyy off track with Weight Watchers these last few weeks. I hate to say that the only part of me that's looking forward to Jason leaving is that it's good for my diet.
The puppy...Scarlett.....not potty trained. And she was a royal bitch (no pun intended) at puppy class last night. Growling and hissing at all the other puppies. That was a new one. She's very cute and very cuddly, but the world is her toilet.
I know I'm blessed. And I just started reading "The Secret"....great theory, but the book is very redundant....probably trying to pound the message into my impossibly hard head. I'm just at the part where they explain how to actually put it into action. Wish me luck. Somehow I have to figure out how to ask for what I want instead of telling the Universe what I don't want. Put out only positive. I think I can, I think I can.......